*To the few of you who get notified by my new blog posts*
This isn't meant to be fishing for compliments but rather a post of solidarity with those who feel the same way. No one is immune to these thoughts. This is simply an example of the constant mental battle I struggle with -- the negatives vs. the hope that God has taught me to have in Him, the fear the devil tries to instill in me of vs. the faith I have in Him, the lies vs. the truth.
We all have the freedom to choose how to cope with our insecurities and find freedom from our struggles. God is my choice, my enough, my reason to believe I am made for more than what my flesh tries to limit me by. These kinds of thoughts are not fixed by an immediate God, but rather, a God who takes His time to teach me and mature me through trials and experience. My character is strengthened because of my lows and my highs are grounded in humility because of my lows.
Also, you are not alone. At the very least, remember that.